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returns it would be very bad. No, with 38 springs on my back, I still play for another reason: to kick the monster out of my soul. This is the reason why, when I complete one song I feel better than before. It’s like a therapy, a magical rite that, when happens, sustains you and gives a lot of strength to carry on. You know I can’t think about myself as an example for someone. I’ve got so many holes and pieces to gather inside I hardly sleep at night but, full circle, here is where music helps and works. The first track of the album “The River Of Remorse” is my favorite for this reason. When memories still break your heart and you can’t help to think about what went wrong in your life, in a relationship or in your past and present you must give these damned feelings a way out, and for me it’s playing. I feel fortunate to have the gift to transform all this negative stuff in music and poetry, otherwise I’d end up using drugs or even considering suicide as a way out. I mean I wouldn’t be here anymore if I had all this strain still packed inside. You may find my music ugly and outdated but you can’t come to me telling is not sincere. And this is a thing a bit rare in music industry where everything is merely business most of the times. I feel fortunate even not to have to do my own things according to someone else’s taste. An important producer, as he heard the master of the album, said “Oh no, you can’t do that...it sounds like a mix among Pink Floyd, Blackmore and Robert Smith stuff...it sounds so old-fashioned.. .no one will buy such a record in 2007!” Well, I never ever felt so proud of myself and about this record. This guy can go to hell for what I care. I care about being myself and not following trends, because I do believe there’s something about honesty, in making art deserving this name, that all the money in the world will never buy!
Maximilian
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